Time flies.... 16 Sept 2008 is our first wedding anniversary..
Overall, the last one year has been loving and nurturing. No doubt there were disagreements but thankfully we adopt an open attitude and keep the communication chain active. These invariably help us to move another step forward as a couple, no matter how small it is.
My hubby is liken to a friend, lover and mate all roll into one. I am blessed. I am thankful. I am contented. I am happy...
The anniversary sets the stage for more things to come, good or bad, positive or negative. Regardless of nature, we will take them in our stride and move on. I am sure our relationship will continue to be work upon so that it is filled with pockets of love, appreciation, joy and laughter..
Happy First Anniversary baby! I love you to bits.........:-)
Monday, 15 September 2008
Thursday, 29 May 2008
Reminisce....
Going through the past photos, greeting cards and letters brought flashes of all of my friends and events through my mind like photographic memory... snap..snap..snap....
I have lost contact with all... Daniel Ng Lian Hock, Bee Peng, Doris, Koon Heer, Bee Yong, Mui Lan, Juat Hiang, Yen, Yolanda, William, Kenneth, Foong Mui, Seet Kin, and the list goes on...
My growing up years had been filled with joy, love, pain, sadness, laughter, tears, regrets, achievements and disappointments all rolled together. Thanks to my friends who had in one point or another for contributing to my colourful life.
My friends, I wonder how you are doing but hope that you have been well and happy... I am unsure if we will ever meet again, but I do want to say that if there was any occasion whereby I had unwittingly failed or hurt you previously, I am sorry.
At this moment, thanks for the memory bank where I can still reminisce every now and then.
Take care my friends.....I wish that all things good and beautiful will come your way always...
I have lost contact with all... Daniel Ng Lian Hock, Bee Peng, Doris, Koon Heer, Bee Yong, Mui Lan, Juat Hiang, Yen, Yolanda, William, Kenneth, Foong Mui, Seet Kin, and the list goes on...
My growing up years had been filled with joy, love, pain, sadness, laughter, tears, regrets, achievements and disappointments all rolled together. Thanks to my friends who had in one point or another for contributing to my colourful life.
My friends, I wonder how you are doing but hope that you have been well and happy... I am unsure if we will ever meet again, but I do want to say that if there was any occasion whereby I had unwittingly failed or hurt you previously, I am sorry.
At this moment, thanks for the memory bank where I can still reminisce every now and then.
Take care my friends.....I wish that all things good and beautiful will come your way always...
Sunday, 25 May 2008
关系。。。。
人与人之间的关系永远是那么的令人费解...
A person's rationale governs his behaviour, speech and action. When the emotional element comes into picture, all these deliverables become affected. What more when other factors such as environment, peer influence, expectations and more come into picture?
And one's connection with another very often becomes a journey for the parties involved. The possibilities for growth together are limitless, if only the karmic force is nurturing and that there is openness and trust.
I don't think a relationship is about trying to change the other person. After all, we all have our own set of habits, beliefs, emotions and reactions that may or may not serve our lives and our growth well for a start.
But very often, it's only when one party mirrors the hidden belief systems and emotions on the outside then the recipient realize the impact and truth, be it positive or negative.
As we see these, we can either brush aside all or have a choice to look hard within. It is good to let go of our own belief systems and see things objectively and rationally, and start looking at filling the gaps if any. Then perhaps, this is our opportunity for a real change and freedom and a bond can also be formed - with a new understanding of love and a connection that is made on the level of the deepest sort.
But honestly, how many of us really put our hearts into such? It's all about self needs, wants and expectations anyways..
A person's rationale governs his behaviour, speech and action. When the emotional element comes into picture, all these deliverables become affected. What more when other factors such as environment, peer influence, expectations and more come into picture?
And one's connection with another very often becomes a journey for the parties involved. The possibilities for growth together are limitless, if only the karmic force is nurturing and that there is openness and trust.
I don't think a relationship is about trying to change the other person. After all, we all have our own set of habits, beliefs, emotions and reactions that may or may not serve our lives and our growth well for a start.
But very often, it's only when one party mirrors the hidden belief systems and emotions on the outside then the recipient realize the impact and truth, be it positive or negative.
As we see these, we can either brush aside all or have a choice to look hard within. It is good to let go of our own belief systems and see things objectively and rationally, and start looking at filling the gaps if any. Then perhaps, this is our opportunity for a real change and freedom and a bond can also be formed - with a new understanding of love and a connection that is made on the level of the deepest sort.
But honestly, how many of us really put our hearts into such? It's all about self needs, wants and expectations anyways..
Sunday, 9 March 2008
Struggle
Looking at mum's frail and almost lifeless body, I feel nothing but immense pain coursing through my heart and numbing my brain.. Tears are controlled so as not to stress her further.
Trying level best to let go and be prepared for her new journey, if it happens, turns out to be a daily battle. I love her to bits but her debilitating health has taken its toll on her mental and emotional well being as well as her care givers.
I feel tons of guilt whenever I feel that perhaps it is better for her to move on to another realm with GOM. I feel tons of guilt whenever I am not with her when she is in pain. I feel tons of guilt whenever I am so tired and I just want to rest a little. I feel tons of guilt when I see the way Alice takes care of mum and I seem to be so helpless. I feel tons of guilt whenever I don't know what to do with caring mum.
It is a huge struggle for me and I am still having trouble managing it.
If only I have the wisdom and mindful strength to do what needs to be done. If only...
Trying level best to let go and be prepared for her new journey, if it happens, turns out to be a daily battle. I love her to bits but her debilitating health has taken its toll on her mental and emotional well being as well as her care givers.
I feel tons of guilt whenever I feel that perhaps it is better for her to move on to another realm with GOM. I feel tons of guilt whenever I am not with her when she is in pain. I feel tons of guilt whenever I am so tired and I just want to rest a little. I feel tons of guilt when I see the way Alice takes care of mum and I seem to be so helpless. I feel tons of guilt whenever I don't know what to do with caring mum.
It is a huge struggle for me and I am still having trouble managing it.
If only I have the wisdom and mindful strength to do what needs to be done. If only...
Wednesday, 20 February 2008
Attachment
There is a kind of monkey trap used in Asia. A coconut is hollowed out and attached by a rope to a tree or stake in the ground. At the bottom of the coconut a small slit is made and some sweet food is placed inside. The hole on the bottom of the coconut is just big enough for the monkey to slide in his open hand, but does not allow for a closed fist to pass out. The monkey smells the sweets, reaches in with his hand to grasp the food and is then unable to withdraw.
The clenched fists won't pass through the opening. When the hunter comes, the monkey becomes frantic but cannot get away. There is no one keeping the monkey captive, except the force of its own attachment. All that it has to do is to open the hand. But so strong is the force of greed in the mind that it is a rare monkey which can let go.
It is the desires and clinging in our minds which keep us trapped. All we need to do is to open our hands, let go of our selves, our attachment, and be free.
The clenched fists won't pass through the opening. When the hunter comes, the monkey becomes frantic but cannot get away. There is no one keeping the monkey captive, except the force of its own attachment. All that it has to do is to open the hand. But so strong is the force of greed in the mind that it is a rare monkey which can let go.
It is the desires and clinging in our minds which keep us trapped. All we need to do is to open our hands, let go of our selves, our attachment, and be free.
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