Thursday, 25 September 2008

Praying for the best....

I lost a friend to cancer last week.

Yesterday, I received news from my dearest friend J that the doctor had similar suspicion of possible cancer as the first doctor on her condition. However, this has to be further tested before a confirmation can be concluded.

The uncertainty is a heavy weight. I understand this familiar sentiment all too well. But the only thing I can do is to continue being with her and giving her all the support and love she needs.

I am hoping for the best my friend....

Monday, 22 September 2008

Bangkok encounters...

I experienced something new during the recent weekend getaway in Bangkok.

As with other cities, Bangkok has its own social structure. It has evolved over time and for sure no end is in sight. With the introduction of modernity and technology, Bangkok while energetic, still reeks of excessive will to simply survive.

Not least, little children are everywhere begging for that little help to live. Their innocent eyes are crystal clear yet devoid of feelings.... Adults are more proactive and many resort to little underhand tricks for that extra Baht... Half built complexes bustling with people making their business thrive there... And finally, the cruising of Chao Phraya river which offers a glimpse of traditional riverine lifestyles, also afford insights into the character of the city that can be very intriguing and contradicting...

Bangkok is definitely one that offers opportunities, but the vicious living cycle of the poor also cannot be ignored. How can they break away when basic livelihood is already at stake?

Education is the key to change. Only with right level of knowledge and language skills that one can make that conscious choice to make a difference in his life. But education really depends on the government's efforts in laying the ground right, the family sending the kids to school willingly as well as the means to support the kids and more.

It's not an easy problem to solve. In retrospect, I can't help but begin to appreciate our government's deep belief in education and its relentless effort in ensuring a tight educational fabric where all kinds of kids are covered, be it the usual junior colleges to university for the studious ones or polytechnics and even ITE where kids yearn to learn a viable and practical skill that is relevant to the society.

This is effective only if the kids in return make full use of the system and support given. Thankfully, our parents also believe in education. This is really......... a basic but good start to all things.

Monday, 15 September 2008

Our First Anniversary...

Time flies.... 16 Sept 2008 is our first wedding anniversary..

Overall, the last one year has been loving and nurturing. No doubt there were disagreements but thankfully we adopt an open attitude and keep the communication chain active. These invariably help us to move another step forward as a couple, no matter how small it is.

My hubby is liken to a friend, lover and mate all roll into one. I am blessed. I am thankful. I am contented. I am happy...

The anniversary sets the stage for more things to come, good or bad, positive or negative. Regardless of nature, we will take them in our stride and move on. I am sure our relationship will continue to be work upon so that it is filled with pockets of love, appreciation, joy and laughter..

Happy First Anniversary baby! I love you to bits.........:-)

Thursday, 29 May 2008

Reminisce....

Going through the past photos, greeting cards and letters brought flashes of all of my friends and events through my mind like photographic memory... snap..snap..snap....

I have lost contact with all... Daniel Ng Lian Hock, Bee Peng, Doris, Koon Heer, Bee Yong, Mui Lan, Juat Hiang, Yen, Yolanda, William, Kenneth, Foong Mui, Seet Kin, and the list goes on...

My growing up years had been filled with joy, love, pain, sadness, laughter, tears, regrets, achievements and disappointments all rolled together. Thanks to my friends who had in one point or another for contributing to my colourful life.

My friends, I wonder how you are doing but hope that you have been well and happy... I am unsure if we will ever meet again, but I do want to say that if there was any occasion whereby I had unwittingly failed or hurt you previously, I am sorry.

At this moment, thanks for the memory bank where I can still reminisce every now and then.

Take care my friends.....I wish that all things good and beautiful will come your way always...

Sunday, 25 May 2008

关系。。。。

人与人之间的关系永远是那么的令人费解...

A person's rationale governs his behaviour, speech and action. When the emotional element comes into picture, all these deliverables become affected. What more when other factors such as environment, peer influence, expectations and more come into picture?

And one's connection with another very often becomes a journey for the parties involved. The possibilities for growth together are limitless, if only the karmic force is nurturing and that there is openness and trust.

I don't think a relationship is about trying to change the other person. After all, we all have our own set of habits, beliefs, emotions and reactions that may or may not serve our lives and our growth well for a start.

But very often, it's only when one party mirrors the hidden belief systems and emotions on the outside then the recipient realize the impact and truth, be it positive or negative.

As we see these, we can either brush aside all or have a choice to look hard within. It is good to let go of our own belief systems and see things objectively and rationally, and start looking at filling the gaps if any. Then perhaps, this is our opportunity for a real change and freedom and a bond can also be formed - with a new understanding of love and a connection that is made on the level of the deepest sort.

But honestly, how many of us really put our hearts into such? It's all about self needs, wants and expectations anyways..