要懂得知足，才能常乐。。。

Sick

Last Friday, I came down with high fever, flu and bronchitic cough.

I had felt it coming a few days prior but I chose to ignore it and still pushed my body hard. It just that I didn't realize that I was that tired physically and mentally.

The illness hit me strongly and without mercy. I felt severely debilitated especially from the throbbing cough, inflamed airways,never ending phlegm and aches. Deep in my heart, I also knew that our attempt to have that little miracle would have failed without question. Each time I popped the antibiotics into my system, I felt a sense of loss coursing through me. No doubt the medicine was meant to heal, it concurrently kills as well.

WY remains caring and loving. He never fails to understand what causes my distress and can come up with something meaningful to allay them. He is a godsend and I must have done something right in my past life to have deserved such a wonderful husband.

WY is the most important person in my life and I shudder to even think of a day without him in my life.

Certain things are simply not meant to be. Really have to put things in perspective and start moving on. Yes.... so I shall...

七上八下。。。乱七八糟。。。

今早好姐妹来了。

开始的时候，心情还挺平静。。。可当宝贝抱我的那一刹那，内心充满了六陈杂味，整颗心直坠谷底。。宝贝的谅解和温柔细语肯定是我的安慰，是自己一时还无法释怀。。。

我知人生不可能永遠事事如意，可那一股强列的沮丧感直侵袭而来，而泪水也不听使唤的流了下来。。。

此刻，真正感叹“事与愿违“，“命里无时莫强求”。。。

咳。。。是的。。。是时候让自己学习真真正正看开，放下。。。 放下这渴望，才能无挂碍。。。 无挂碍，才是一味解烦丹。。。 而解烦丹，也就是所谓的快乐自在吧。。。

Ah Mah's 84th Birthday

Ah Mah turned 84 last Saturday. In her current state, she wouldn't know about such special occasion any more but the gathering of her children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren certainly brought her spirits up.

For some moments, she managed to carry out some very intelligent conversations with her loved ones. And she could even called out our cousin's name Ah Hock to take pictures of her and the grand birthday cake.

Overall, the celebration was quietly carried out without too much hipe. This is somewhat different from my family because we tend to be more boisterous and celebrations are often marked with adults chatting or cooking fervently, kids playing happily and everyone digging in heartily.

Still, it's the warmth of family gathering together that really matters isn't it? :-)

Praying for the best....

I lost a friend to cancer last week.

Yesterday, I received news from my dearest friend J that the doctor had similar suspicion of possible cancer as the first doctor on her condition. However, this has to be further tested before a confirmation can be concluded.

The uncertainty is a heavy weight. I understand this familiar sentiment all too well. But the only thing I can do is to continue being with her and giving her all the support and love she needs.

I am hoping for the best my friend....