The Challenge To Change Myself.

Many a times, I hear people moaning about being helpless and powerless to challenge the way things are. And unfortunately I belong to this group too, though in reality, I have been and am still actuley aware that while big and small siuations can be difficult to confront and overcome, we are always able to change ourselves in the face of all these.

I would love things and people around me to be better and to be in a way I want them to be. And very often, it can also be so difficult to go easy (not to mention let go) on the things in life I covet. Truth is, I cannot expect things and people to change. Cos they usually wont. And such situations can be demoralising or even depressing at times.

But life in itself is filled with opportunitites to make small changes that make a big difference, in my life and the lives of others. So, I can at least look at myself and see how changing the way I view and do things and the little ways that I can do to make that difference... to my life, which incidentally is so intricately intertwined with the people I love...

I plan to first take a bit of a break from work and have some time to myself. My goal is simple - breathe, live, love, and learn.

Top things I wish to try ( no specific order ) -

1 Get more exercise and be physically fit ( this is not about going to the gym, it means taking a walk in the park or beach or even... riding a bicycle.)

2 Meditate and be mentally, emotionally aware ( this is not about retreat, it means taking that moment, however short it is, to slow down and be aware of the breath, of the surrounding)

3 Learn culinary skills (this is not about attending classes, it means preparing new recipes and loving breakfast or dinners for my loved ones)

4 Learn effective public speaking ( this is not about work, it means the readiness to engaging people from all walks of life at any point in time)

5 Learn basic colour scheme and make up (heh heh heh... this is about me wanting to learn how to present myself)

6 Be more loving (this is not about loving my hubby and sista, it means the readiness to extend the emphaty and loving kindness to people around us in general)

7 Go easy on myself and people around me ( I worry and fear of things and people too frequently and I end up not being the most agreeable person at the end of the day. This is about learning to let things be and really, I don’t have to live through the insanity do I?)

Now... a simple goal and detailed index card in place.

I just need to be steadily aware of these and start doing them starting May/June! Yay!!