Bewildered...

Yearnings... desires.... Wishes....Whatever and however you coin it.... it is the same...

For it can be a powerful force.... to propel one to move and work towards achieving it. Once failed, one either moves on with more fervour to getting it or one moves away to look for alternatives.

Emotionally, this can be draining - as the roller coaster of expectations and results can be quite a ride.

Yes, I am feeling apprehensive, tense and a litle shocked even.

I cannot even understand if this feeling of low and fear is a result of my emotions running wild... and nothing more..

I am praying for calmness... this very moment...